My Open Journal Entry

It’s interesting when life is flowing; we don’t always take a step back to appreciate it or acknowledge it. I’ve always encouraged journaling to help us take on the days and the moments and embrace the goodness of most days. The truth is, most of us have more good days than bad. It’s just that the bad has a higher rank than the good because it takes more energy to deal with. This is one of those weeks that, when I dissect, it’s been a thrill and a heartache. 

I’ve managed to keep up with my schedule this year and maintain a decent client load (though the waitlist continues to grow). It’s my nature to want to help people and know that I can help people. But my call to motherhood is much stronger than managing a client load or business success overall. But the tricky thing is, you really can’t just take off. I’ve been managing to clock work hours 7 days a week for a long time, mostly because I don’t have enough time during the school days to finish my workload, and it’s nice to catch up on weekends when I’m not being bombarded with emails, collaboration requests, and now all these Black Friday deals. I sometimes metaphorically dig a hole during these sale days and hide away. I’d rather pay full price than stress myself out on some deals, which may be a toxic trait of mine. The older I get, the more toxic traits I notice. Anyone else?

Today, I will share a bit about my week and then some journaling prompts that I will follow myself because I need to refocus, ground myself, and express gratitude.